hey you, i love you more than i did before. *tears

Well it's good to hear your voice
I hope you're doing fine
And if you ever wonder
I'm lonely here tonight


I'm lost here in this moment
And time keeps slipping by
And if I could have just one wish
I'd have you by my side


I miss you , I need you


And I love you more
Than I did before
And then today I don't see your face
Nothing's changed
No one could take your place
It gets harder every day
Say you love me more than you did before
And I'm sorry it's this way
But I'm coming home
I'll be coming home
And if you ask me I will stay
I will stay


Well I try to live without you
But tears fall from my eyes
I'm alone and I feel empty
God, I'm torn apart inside
I look up at the stars
Hoping you're doing the same
And somehow I feel closer
And I can hear you say


I will stay
Always stay
I never want to lose you
And if I had to, I would choose you
So stay
Please always stay
You're the one that I hold on to
Cause my heart would stop without you

i am so down fer life =.=

hari neyh lepas kelas td aku pegi consult ngn Mdm Wahida.. she talked to me almost evrything. no lies , diew mmg mcm seorg emak. aku nanges td. bincang pasal cgpa aku rendah. aku takot ta lepas buat degree. aku cube nk phm nape aku ta bole nk score.. mdm ckp pasal arwah ibu. aku nanges lg. i wish i had someone to cry on. aku tade sape nk luah sume neyh. n aku tahu, nazrin pun ta bole phm.

hari ni hari paling teruk bg aku.

i shouldnt have cried.

to be honest, my tears are going out again. god tell me why. have i much been thinking of it lately?
for god sake i wish i could collect all my tears n show it to you how much have ive suffered this far.
maaf. i need to study, somehow my focus lose to my anger itself. i thought by moving to somewhere else will get me to over you, truth is, i am still not. am i biatch? do i need to suffer n breakdown this much? or its just only me who cannot get over you? or am i seriously injured in my heart? you guys know nothing , denga pembohongan n pura-pura dia n accused me fer everything, i wish God will show you the truth. All of you - the people that had been lied by that man. i am hurt i wish you know that.. n cure me god. needing you.

101st entry of mine.

okey. aku bukan nk marah. tp aku sgt muak org duk bercerita tentang syahman.

maaf. aku tepakse mention. tade niat nk buruk kan kaw pon

cume org ta habes2 bercerita pasal dia.

korg ta tahu ape2 yg jadi, yg buat aku marah dan benci hilang mood tba2.

so back offf n keep ur mouth shut 

tengs (: aku mls nk gado sal mamat nh ngn org len. tolongglah. 

cut dat crap off.

you tear me up nilai

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did

And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did

And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof tops
Write it on the sky line
All we had is gone now

Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know

Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love and words
Empty promises will wear
I know, I know

And now when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

rasa MONYOK dan hilang KAWALAN.

oohh-kay. BFAST with abah kt lua td.
mula2 ikot abah pegi pasa. derrr. panas taw orgg tunggu lame dlm kete.
cair make up aku. mcm nk tanggal segala baju td.
later then, we went to this one pakistan restaurant.
sy dan dia makan ; ROTI NAN dgn KARI KAMBENGG.. mmmbekk mbekkk. haha


kenyang weyh. smpai aku n abah ta larat nk mangun.
mcm kine ikat perot boroi kt kerusi pakistan tuh ha...
erppppp. alhamdulillah. HAHA.
mcm sial masing2. makan 2 org ; RM8.60.
ting ting!! abah baya. kua RM50. wuhuu. kaya bapakku.
then kami lalu depan satu butik nh. EARTH PINK,
abah abah.. benti jap benti jap!!!
abah tunggu jap nana nk tanye harga beg nh.
lame dan khusyukknya daku dalam butik tuh.
mcm pandang mamat omputeh kachak * simile bagi beg2 yg lawa.
haha. sengal kan aku? apa bole bikin. hati da tepaot pada kejelitaannya.
abah2..mintak RM20 bole? haa... nk buat ape?
nana nk belli beg tuh.. abah pls. harga dia nana da tawar
nana ad duet sikit, abah tambah RM20 JE,
he says ; NO. membazir je. beg da ad melambak kt umah




FCUKIN' FRUSTRATED. bengang yg teramat sgt.. 
balek umah monyok gle muka. 
lam kete ta becakap langsong ngn abah. *hey sy merajok taw!




then sampai umah, he asked me to do this and this. 
me keep locking myself in room. abah bengang. ckp aku mls. hey!!

BEWARE of your words DAD.

aku yg tiba2 tambah ke-bengang-an nya nh, kua bilik,
pegi sapu rumah, cuci2 pinggan yg melambak *hello asal rumah nh punyai beribu2 pinggan mangkok?
bukan pakai pon.. da tataw nk sumbat mana. *marah taw!
then ntah ape hidayah aku dapat, aku p cuci toilet kt sbelah dapo.
bukan nk tunjuk rajen. tp alang2 buat kije, bek buat suma.


diri ini sgt lah penat dan harap dapat own STUDDED BAG yg aku nmpk td.
hey, nana betol kempunan abah. btw, itu adalag beg WATI juga SUKA okeyy!!!
who get it 1st? haha tunggu lah kesudahannya. (:


binkk!! Nak smbong kemas bilik pulak. muahx.


love love fer all.

what the hell with u freak

okey.. i tend to get so upset n self breakdown. i try to expect my pointer 3, but it went a lil bit low than that.

sgt sdey menangis depan abah td.

abah ; da check? dapat brape?

me ; less than 3! i try so hard to get 3.sob3..*nanges.

abah ; haa. mesti ad mistake sumwhere lah tuh. mende2 mcm nh bukan bole hafal2 jew. kine blaja dan faham.

me ; sob3 *nanges lg

abah ; kan abah da ckp, blaja adek. blaja. tp adek tanak denga abah ckp.

me ; tp nana yakin da buat terbaek to get 3

abah ; hurmm..

okeyyy. so, i took bathe, siap2 tunggu wati dtg to lepak-ing.

i screwed up every effort that i made.

im so upset. i wont update my FB status fer one week. nk puasa FACEBOOK.

aclty, my result was okayy than any others. rili. trust me.

cume, kecewe sbb ta dpt 3. dissapoint me alot.

with all black suits, from my jeans to my shirts n cardigan, ALL BLACK,

its a mourning moment fer myself.

tengs MADAM SERY. i do still appreciate all ur taughts..

and ntah what i babbled to waty . she hears every  mock from me.

angry. mad. insane, shouting. crazy. 

jalan2 then kami beli coke.

me - ORIGINAL

wati - VANILLA 

all  the way, me mock, talking bad. but we did laugh together.

i love you norazwati zainal abidin. u always there ur in need.

sembang then we TALKED ABOUT WHITE VIVA. shit.

fuck up like seriously. how damn i hate WHITE VIVA. 
n theres suddenly like LOTS of VIVA..

haish. it reminds me of trip to PD.

n damn scared when me read a news about how WHITE VIVA  
crashed all the way long at PD Highway.

its like from TELUK KEMANG - SEREMBAN HIGHWAY

the memories of him n me came back to tears me .

we did passed over dat road. n thank God.

we were having a safe journey during that time.

ohh-kay, what the babi am i talking about HIM!.

ferget it nana. im doing fine. *eleh yeke fine?

hasnt he accused u fer something u didnt do? u SHOULD HATE him.**

okeyy. im not that bad.

i dont hate u. i just wan u to realize what is right n what is wrong

u will realize it one day. me sure. 

once again. ALLAH knows the TRUTH.

i bet that time i will not have a single sympathy towards you. HOPEFULLY.

huh.. this is it. the MOMENTS,

why is it some people bother if their friend starts to like a very long page?

u feel annoyed? ouh there are people who just more annoyed to you.

u guys pon kejap lagi like2 mende tuh jgk?

ta ke nyemakkan org laen punya home kt FB jugak?

shit. i give fuckin damn to these people.

buat saket mate orgg taw! bukan sbb all the long pages that they like,

tp saket mate look at u guys punye status.

freaking foo. fuhh fuhh.*tiup org2 itu.

well sy sdg BERKABUNG kerana terlalu sdey. marah sgt.

tp nana bersyukur nana LULUS.

ALHAMDULILLAH.

syukran ya ALLAH.

Ameen..

few pics crazy ones. happykan diri.

boo boo. perasan. so aku peduli?

freak 

p/s. I LOVE YOU. (:

IM GONNA GIVE ALL MY SECRETS AWAY. . . .

I need another story
Something to get off my chest
My life gets kinda boring
Need something that I can confess

Til’ all my sleeves are stained red
From all the truth that I’ve said
Come by it honestly I swear
Thought you saw me wink, no
I’ve been on the brink, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I’m gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don’t need another perfect line
Don’t care if critics never jump in line
I’m gonna give all my secrets away

My god, amazing how we got this far
It’s like we’re chasing all those stars
Who’s driving shiny big black cars

And everyday I see the news
All the problems that we could solve
And when a situation rises
Just write it into an album
Singing straight, too cold
I don’t really like my flow, no, so

Tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I’m gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don’t need another perfect line
Don’t care if critics never jump in line
I’m gonna give all my secrets away

Oh, got no reason, got not shame
Got no family I can blame
Just don’t let me disappear
I’mma tell you everything

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I’m gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don’t need another perfect line
Don’t care if critics never jump in line
I’m gonna give all my secrets away

So tell me what you want to hear
Something that were like those years
Sick of all the insincere
So I’m gonna give all my secrets away
This time, don’t need another perfect line
Don’t care if critics never jump in line
I’m gonna give all my secrets away
All my secrets away, All my secrets away

SECRETS 

one republic

THE UNNAMED FEELING

 Been here before couldnt say i like it

Do I start  writing all this down?

Just let me plug you into my world

Cant you help me be uncrazy?

Name this for me, heat the cold air

Take the chill off of my life

And if I could I'd turn my eyes

To look inside to what's coming

It comes alive, and I die a lil more

It comes alive

Each moment I here I die a lil more

Then the unnamed feeling

It comes alive

Then the unnamed feeling

Takes me away

Im frantic in your soothing arms

I cannot sleep in this down filled world

I've found safety in this loneliness

But I cannot stand it anymore

METALLICA

tengs (:

May God Shows You The Truth. Ameen.

empty. aku taw aku ta salah.
tunggu masa ye sume org..
Allah tuh maha adil..
(: smile fer all. muahx.

aku rindu waktu gelak tawa dulu

dunno. it seems failed to get it rid out of my head.
aku benar rindu nk gelak ketawa ngn korg.
mungkin sem3 bukan yg paling indah. tp sem2..awesome myb.
aku akan rindukan org2  nilai.
org2 yg selalu ketawa indah dgn aku.
org yg teman aku g GIANT tuk shopping.
teman aku g OLD TOWN makan laksa.
org yg teman aku lepak KAWAH THAI.
farok n fezul hadi dulu yg slalu teman aku makan sup daging.
syaman yg slalu teman aku makan nasik ayam.
kawan2 yg slalu teman aku lepak MCD sampai abg2 mcd pun muak
tgk ktowg slalu ov kt mcd.
kecoh2 kt mcd ngn pcot, bella, syaman, andre, gaga, farok, rush, alya, yani, sukasuki. abeep, aimi, hajar, amal n my love ones ; hhaha fezol hadi.
ok. ini mmg kaki2 MCD. tett.
rindu g makan PIZZA HUT wit sukasuki n farok.
rindu pegi PD wit farok, kiss, bel n rush.
sampai kine tego ngn RELA. haha lawak ones!
aku jugak rndu ruby.. syg
rindu nk makan ROCKY.
aku rindu sume.
kawan2.
dan yg pernah begelar kawan.
mungkinkah kitew akan mcm tuh lg ble ke PJ nnty?
aku rindu gelak tawa kawan2 aku.
yg suke buat aku senyum.
terima kaseh sahabt.
aku teringat. maaf

buat sahabat.

M.A.S.A.L.A.H

esok exam. i feel bad.

stdy ta abes lg.. lots to read..

u go girl! n im truly sori sygss.

aku ta pat join kowg sok ke pavi,.

saps, alya n naj.. i rili wanted to go. but sumtin has stop me to do so.

sori sgtt..

n aku td bole nanges gle pasal encip siakap.

shut. pls ckp im not fallin fer u.

im so damn missing u syg. 

off to cry n off to bed. 

niway, haha andre ngokngek lah.

nyte you olls!!